Somewhere, the universe, in its infinite comedic wisdom, was workshopping material, and she, inexplicably, kept ending up in the bit
She’s a powerlifter. She lives in hiking boots, ripped jeans, and band tees. Her idea of getting ready is lacing up her boots tighter. He, on the other hand, was a known Jordanian actor, Bedouin to his core, with Saudi roots that ran deep. The only version of him she’d ever encountered was the formidable, macho shaikh he portrayed on screen: a tempest of wild black hair, a commanding beard, and a sweeping, natural authority that effortlessly filled every frame. He moved through scenes as if he owned the very air around him.
They’ve been following each other on Instagram since 2018. What started as a flicker of curiosity soon blossomed into something more profound – genuine conversations that traversed the landscapes of Bedouin culture, the intricate machinery of filmmaking, and the delightful chaos that often accompanied his projects. When he recited classical Arabic poetry – his voice turning rich, deliberate, and resonant – her heart sang. It was a tapestry of passion, honor, and heartbreak, woven into phrases that moved like music.
Yet, they remained tethered to pixels. Every attempt to bridge the digital divide with a real-world meeting was met with an almost cosmic intervention.
Then, she vanished. A digital disappearing act, her social media accounts deleted, replaced by the open road and a fervent desire for a complete reset, a clean slate Three years later, she resurfaced with a new account. He found her within days. They picked up exactly where they had left off, but this time, he was a man with a plan. “This woman is a flight risk,” he’d later admit. “I have to make this happen before she ghosts me for another three years.”
The irony was not lost on her: by then, she was living out of a backpack with no itinerary past next week. Not ideal for two people trying to be in the same place at the same time.
And then, last June, the celestial bodies, or so i believed, finally aligned. I landed in Jordan for family business, a three-year interlude since my last visit. We were finally – finally – going to meet. He would pick me up. The ‘where’ and ‘how’ were left entirely to his discretion.
When his car pulled up, i leaned into the driver’s side window, a reconnaissance mission to get a first glimpse. White T-shirt. Jeans. So much for my Lawrence of Arabia fantasy. Had i truly envisioned a shaikh, fresh from the desert, adorned in full traditional garb? Apparently, i had. But then, those eyes. Piercing black, rimmed with natural kohl, framed by impossibly thick lashes – they were exactly as i remembered.
No introductions were needed. No awkward small talk. He simply nodded towards the passenger seat. I got in. The door hadn’t even fully closed before he unleashed a torrent of jokes, naturally, effortlessly funny. Stories of film sets gone hilariously awry, anecdotes about his family, the perennial plight of being typecast as the stoic shaikh. I couldn’t stop laughing. I’d been telling him ever since: he was squandering his comedic genius on drama. He belonged in stand-up
Then, one hand casually on the wheel, his voice deepened, shifting into the melodic cadence of classical Arabic. Poetry. Live, in person, it was an entirely different experience. The drive stretched longer than i anticipated. Eventually, the city’s concrete embrace thinned and receded, and he guided us up a hill overlooking Amman. His sanctuary, he called it. The place he sought when the world grew too loud.
The hill was empty. Trees scattered across it, the city sprawling below. He parked, got out, popped the trunk.
I expected a blanket, maybe some snacks. What he pulled out was a full Bedouin majlis.
He refused to let me help. I watched as he carried everything to a spot under a tree; woven rugs in deep Arabian reds, floor seats, cushions arranged for leaning back. It looked like he’d transplanted a living room into the wild. We had maybe an hour before sunset.

Then, with practiced ease, he built a fire to brew Arabic coffee – his favorite, he said. Dates and dark, glistening Ajwa appeared. Cardamom smoke curled lazily into the air. He smiled throughout, cracking jokes as he worked, completely at ease in his element. I sat there, feeling like royalty, as he fussed over every detail. A quiet joy settled within me, this, i realized, was by far the most interesting turn the day could have taken.
The coffee was ready. He poured it into small, delicate cups, handing me one with a few dates. He settled beside me. We sipped. The conversation, which had flowed so easily in the car, continued – well almost- unhurried, punctuated by the gentle crackle of the fire.

Then, three SUVs crested the hill. Within seconds, we were boxed in. One to our right, one to our left, one directly behind us. Families poured out – grandmothers, teenagers, children clutching soccer balls. Barbecue grills materialized, set up so close i could have reached over and flipped their meat. Plastic chairs landed within arm’s reach. We were practically guests at their picnic.
This part of Jordan, I knew, was traditional. Very traditional. A man and a woman alone under a tree? We might as well have been performing dinner theater. Stares were exchanged. Kids, with the unerring aim of youth, kicked their soccer ball at their feet – once, twice, a third time. Voices rose, loud, close, unavoidable. We were forced to whisper just to hear each other over the cacophony. The evening, it seemed, had died on arrival.
We packed everything up: rugs, cushions, coffee. Perhaps We could find another spot. Less perfect, we’d miss the sunset, but at least it would be quieter. Except the entire hill had, in the span of minutes, transformed into a bustling weekend destination. Families everywhere. Every tree claimed. Every patch of grass occupied.
We laughed the entire car ride back. The whole scene possessed a surreal, almost cinematic quality. Here was a man who directed films for a living, watching his carefully orchestrated evening – the precise sunset timing, the hand-brewed coffee, the poetic recitations, the work – get utterly demolished by a suburban barbecue brigade. He looked gutted. Not devastated, but rather… comically defeated. All that effort. All that planning.
“The universe again,” I said. “It’s getting late. We can do something better another day. We have plenty of time.”
That other day never came. He got caught up in the Jerash Festival. I left Jordan on a moment’s decision – unplanned, as always.
Fast forward six months. The “Bedouin Shaikh” is in Saudi Arabia now, having traded the bisht and sword for a director’s chair on a new film project. We still talk consistently. We have a history now – just not the one either of us expected.
When I told him I was finally writing about our ill-fated afternoon on the hill, I offered to keep his name out of it. Protect the professional mystique, you know. He didn’t hesitate. “I would be honored to have my name next to yours,” he said. “Of course you can mention me.”
We brainstormed the story together – the Director and the Writer, six months and a thousand miles later, still laughing at the time the universe deployed the least expected weapons to make sure our “perfect” evening stayed exactly what it was meant to be: a very funny, very fond memory.

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